Tuesday, October 30, 2012
The days have gone by so fast, I don't even know what day it is! I stay so busy that sometimes I forget to eat. I go to use the bathroom and get side tracked only to realize three hours later that I never made it to the bathroom. My husband calls in the afternoon asking if I need him to go to the store before he comes home and I say, "Didn't you just leave?" Where do the hours go? Between feeding and changing Sophia (now 7 months old), potty training Simon (now 19 months old), home schooling Lydia (in 2nd grade), keeping the house clean, laundry done, and mouths fed, I really haven't found the time to blog much anymore. I am doing it now with Sophia in my lap eating, Simon in bed napping, and Lydia busy watching a newer version of the cartoon "Pound Puppies". We are all ready for Halloween...pumpkins carved, candy bought, costumes laid out, cookies made...except for the little fact that EVERYONE in the house is sick with a cold! I'm hoping that everyone will be better for the annual treat of trick-or-treating. I am in so desperate need of raiding some chocolate....
Tuesday, May 22, 2012
Will it ever be normal again?? I know that my life, from this point on, will never be the same. So much has changed in the last year that it is impossible to get things back to the way they were. But we have settled into a new routine. My husband wakes up around 7ish, goes to work around 9ish, comes home around 6ish. My 7 year old gets up around 8am, eats, plays, eats, plays, eats, plays...etc. This cycle happens about every 20 minutes. Literally!!! My 14 month old wakes up around 7am, eats, plays, naps, eats, plays naps, eats, plays, naps...etc. This cycle happens about every 6 hours or so. My 2 month old wakes up around 6am, eats, poops, sleep, eats, poops, sleep, eats, poops, sleep...etc. This cycle happens every 3-4 hours. With a 5 hour sleep from about 9pm to 2am. Me, you ask?? Me, well....I get about 5 hours of sleep a night (not all at once). I used to get 8-10 hours of sleep. I wake up, sometimes get a shower, get everyone fed, check my email real quick, wash clothes, feed kids, wash dishes, feed kids, clean kitchen, feed kids, clean living room, feed kids, clean bedrooms, feed kids, sometimes remember to eat lunch around 2ish, vacuum house, feed kids, straighten bathrooms, make dinner (unless my husband decides to bring it home), feed everyone, clean kitchen, get kids to bed, and then I sit down. I relax.....until the baby starts crying. Then I go burp her and try to settle her down for a good 4-5 hour sleep. That's my day....when we don't have to go anywhere. When I do have to leave the house, watch out!!!
Monday, April 23, 2012
Friday, March 30, 2012
Monday, March 19, 2012
I get to the Labor and Delivery room at 5:00pm. The doctor comes in, checks me, I am 4cm dialated, cervix still hard. He schedules an epidural (something I requested). It takes about 45 minutes for the anesthesiologist to get there and start the epidural. It took him 4 or 5 tries, but then finally said that it worked...it may have worked, but not fast enough...as I was starting to lay down I felt Sophia coming. I told the nurse that she is coming and I have to push. She said, no don't push, it's not time yet. I said, "YES IT IS TIME!!!" She runs out of the room to get the doctor and I feel the head coming out. I am holding the anesthesiologist's hand, while he is saying, "Oh My, Oh My, Oh My..." They made Mark leave the room while they did the epidural, so he wasn't even in the room with me. I yell out to the nurse (who is still MIA), "I NEED YOU IN HERE NOW!!!" She runs in the room and gets to the foot of the bed right as Sophia slides out. I basically delivered her myself! Two light pushes and she was out! 6:25pm. The nurse again leaves the room with me and Sophia on the bed. She is still attached to me and we are all alone. They had nothing ready in the room for a baby. The nurse comes back with scissors to cut the umbilical cord. I, and everyone else in the hospital, then hears over the intercom, "Code 14, Labor and Delivery, STAT" This perks Mark's ears up and walks out of the waiting room to see what is going on. He comes in the room to see his daughter already in a bassinet bed. The doctor then comes in (he had gone to the cafeteria to get a coffee while they were doing the epidural-remember I was only at 4cm) and says, "Well, she didn't want to wait, did she???" LOL!!! I got to hold Sophia for about 10 minutes before they took her away. She weighed 7lbs, 1oz., 20in long. Imagine how big she would have been had I carried her another 6 weeks!! The doctor sits down to wait to deliver the afterbirth. It doesn't come. I am still having contractions to get the afterbirth out. The epidural never worked, go figure...After an hour, the doctor said I would have to go to the operating room to surgically remove the afterbirth. Two hours after Sophia was born, they roll me to the OR. They drug me up so much that I couldn't feel anything from my chest down. Four hours after she was born, the uterus relaxes and the afterbirth peels off. They didn't have to scrape it off!! I got to my room around 10:30pm. About 11:00pm, Mark finally comes in. His eyes were red and glassy looking. It scared me so bad. I knew, I just knew he was going to tell me that Sophia didn't make it. He didn't, thank God. But he did tell me that they were going to have to transfer her to a hospital an hour and a half away with a NICU. Her lungs weren't fully developed and she was breathing too fast. Imagine the emotional pain I was in. I also had a horrible headache that I thought was from me not having my glasses on. I asked for some pain reliever for that. It wasn't until the next morning that I found out the real reason for my headache and neck ache I was experiencing. Apparently, when they were giving me the epidural, I moved and some spinal fluid leaked out. I was having a spinal headache. This headache is 100 times worse than the worst migraine headache. They brought Sophia in at 3:30am Wednesday morning, 9 hours after she was born, for me to see her before they took her to the other hospital. I was released on Thursday, but wasn't able to get to Sophia until Saturday. I am able to hold her, but not for long because of the pain in my head and neck. It is now Monday and I am still in horrible pain. If only the pain would go away, then I could concentrate on all my kids. In hinds sight, I wouldn't have asked for an epidural...it didn't work for what I wanted it to work for anyway. I feel like I was in the hospital for a neck injury than I was for having a baby. I don't even feel like I had a baby! We are fortunate enough to have family close by and have available a home we can stay in so that we won't have to drive back and forth each day to see Sophia. I am sorry I don't use paragraphs when writing. I know it can be confusing, and my husband has fussed at me about it. Forgive me. Please pray for our family...the healing process may be long. So this is how I am doing.....How are YOU doing???
Monday, March 5, 2012
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Okay, so I have started a blog...I remember being little and my older brother bought the first computer ever to enter our house. He saved up his paper route money and bought a Commodore 64 Apple computer. It was huge, the screen was green and it took forever to boot the system up. I remember thinking..."I could never figure out how to use this thing, I will never get one on my own!" Then when I got out on my own, I did get a computer, mainly to just type out stories, poems, anything that I could think of to write. My brother then kept on about how I should get a modem so that we can email each other. At this point it was the late '90's and he was then living all the way across the country in Colorado. I told him I didn't want to get all "Hi-tech". I didn't want the internet, couldn't understand it, it was man-made, eventually something would go wrong with it. He gave me a modem for Christmas. I couldn't refuse the gift, so I hooked it up. Through the phone line I got free e-mail. I told him it was faster for me just to pick up the phone and call him...easier too! Eventually I got married, and my husband wanted a faster internet service. I was comfortable with dial-up, just my speed! So we got a wireless hook-up. My brother is all about the "new" thing...so he got us hooked up with Skype. Now we can not only talk to each other over the internet, but we can talk face to face! Boy have we come a long way from that old Commodore 64. And now I am a blogger....whatever that means...